Aug
27
Today has been one super hectic day that did not turn out like anything I had planned or imagined. The day started with my husband telling me he loved me and kissing me goodbye at 5 a.m. this morning. He had agreed to go help his dad today which meant his dad would swing by after he got off this morning and pick the hubster up so I would not have to take him later. After the “I love you’s” and kisses were exchanged, I fell back asleep only to wake up an hour later to my cellphone’s text message alert. Oh boy, who in their right mind would be texting me at six a.m. considering everyone around me knows I am not a morning person? Let me re-stress this, I am not a morning person. Low and behold, it was my brother-in-law asking me to tell my husband to turn his phone on which I informed him the hubster was not here so I couldn’t help him with that. So, off to dream land I went once again.
Around 10:30 a.m. I wake up to my phone once again. Considering how I didn’t fall asleep last night until almost four, it’s a wonder I didn’t think to silence my phone but since the hubster was leaving, I left it on in case he needed to get in contact with me. This time around, it was my step-son’s mom asking me if I could meet her at her work to pick him up. He wasn’t supposed to be here until Friday, but it didn’t dawn on me that it was Thursday until after I agreed to come pick him up. Also, I know that today is Friday since it is after 3 a.m. but for all intent purposes, I am still in Thursday mode since I have not been to bed yet so bare with me folks. After our phone call, I rushed to get dressed since I had to pick him up thirty minutes later. I also talked my mom into riding with me and Beth decided to tag-a-long as well. As we pulled up to my step-son’s mom’s work, she comes out of the back (the kitchen area) holding him in nothing but a diaper. I’m sorry but since when is it kosher to take your child out in public in just a diaper? I was raised that children, even babies, do not go out without proper clothing and something on their feet even if it’s a pair of socks if the child is not walking yet. I was livid to say the least. What if we had planned on going somewhere after picking him up? Too effing bad obviously.
So that is how my day started. We also need to throw in the fact that I missed my math class to keep Grayson since my sister had to take my mom and step-dad to the emergency room. My step-dad injured his hand a while back and has finally decided to get it checked on. Evidently, the pain has finally gotten to an all-time high so he thought that it was time to get something done about it. Thank God. I really hate seeing him in pain and when he has no grip in his hand that obviously is a sign that something is wrong. A part of me was very happy to miss my math class since it is the most boring class known to mankind. We have all of our assignments and lectures on this computer program and all the teacher does is read straight from the computer. I’m sorry but why is attendance mandatory if I can do the same thing in the comfort of my own home? I find this ridiculous and not to mention that there is this annoying ass kid who won’t quit talking and humming throughout the class. I swear, one day I’m going to bash him in the head with my keyboard.
Anyways, I did make my night class which is political science. However, on the way to school, I banged my head on my sister’s car since I forgot her car sits a lot lower than mine. This, my friends, has caused me to have a raging migraine. I hurt all through class and the rest of the night. When I got home from class I barely could see and was in tears so my mom gave me a percocet to hopefully knock me out and help with the pain. Nope, ‘fraid not. I am still hurting and I’ve had another pill about an hour ago. Nothing is helping this migraine. My whole head is sore and even the back of my eyes hurt. I have never been in so much pain. This pain is a lot different than my normal migraine as well since it’s not a tension migraine. This migraine has also caused me to have a bout of insomnia which has been a quite frequent thing lately. For some reason, I have insomnia a lot more when Grayson is here. I think I am paranoid about his night terrors and such which he hasn’t had for the past three weeks. *knocks on wood* I have no clue why I don’t sleep as well when he is here other than the fact I am just worried something might happen in his sleep which is just my paranoia talking. At least with my migraine and insomnia I’ve had a chance to actually sit down and blog. I’ve missed my blog. There is so much I have to say, but I just don’t have the time to say it. I have made an honest effort to start making more time for blogging since I have a few other blogging projects I’d like to work on as well, but this blog is my number one priority!
I am going to go lay down and watch one of the Hallmark or Lifetime movies I have on my DVR. Hopefully that will relax me enough after I go get me some apple juice so I can get to sleep. For some reason, my mouth is very dry right now as well. Also, please excuse any weird wording or what not in this post. My husband already told me earlier that I was slurring and not making sense due to my medicine so I can only imagine how this blog post has turned out. I did however read over it three times before I published it though. So anywho, later loves.
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Aug
25
Posted: 08.25.10 @ 04:17pm • Filed: Daily Kate • Tags: memories
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Aug
09
Posted: 08.09.10 @ 07:15pm • Filed: Daily Kate • Tags: weight loss
All my life I have been overweight. I have always been ashamed with my weight issues and have tried to hide them the best I can. I have felt like I have never truly fit into the person I am destined to be. I have always allowed what the scale says determine whether I love myself or not for that particular day. To be honest, it is very exhausting to be fat. You have no idea how tired it is to tote around a hundred or so extra pounds, especially up stairs and in the hot weather. I am quite sure you can imagine how hard it is to chase around a one year old as well. I seriously dread the time when he starts walking and taking off because I know I will be huffing and puffing after him.
In light of all of this, I have decided that it truly is time to make a change. I am not going on a diet or anything like that. I believe the reason I have dieted so much and failed is because I am not getting to the root of my problem. There is some void deep down that I am trying to fill with food which obviously is not working. In order for me to truly change my life, I need to find out what that void is instead of just trying to placate it. As I was watching Oprah today, I heard about a book that I believe would really help me get to the bottom of the problem. So, I purchased Women, Food, & God by Geneen Roth. Roth focuses on the root of all of our problems and does not recommend dieting. She recommends eating until we are satisfied and eating what we want. Obviously, that means that once you take care of your inner problems, you won’t feel like food is a crutch anymore. I can now openly admit that I am a slave to food. It rules my life and I am tired of it. Hopefully my book will get here tomorrow and I can start reading.
The only thing I am scared about is all the feelings and past memories the book is going to bring up. I do not want to relive those awful memories but if it will help me to finally conquer this problem, it is worth it.
In other news, Grayson is staying yet another night with us. I will be meeting his mom at her work tomorrow to drop him off around noon. That works for me because I need to get my books for school on financial aid and then go buy some groceries. I am going through a healthy food kick which I am happy about. I now realize that I can eat what I want but still be healthy since I have been converting a lot of my favorite recipes. I have also been looking up new recipes and I cannot wait to try this Spinach Artichoke Pasta recipe I found online. It looks so yummy and filling at the same time. I never realized how much I adore spinach and artichokes since I used to snub my nose at anything healthy sounding such as spinach.
Well, a certain one year old is dancing and singing in his pack and play which is my sign that it is Mommy and Grayson time while Jonathan is at school. I love these rare moments with Grayson when it is just me and him. He is so sweet and adorable. I love him more and more each day.
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Aug
06
Posted: 08.06.10 @ 08:28pm • Filed: Daily Kate • Tags: Sitely
Wow, it honestly has been forever and a day since I last posted here. I didn’t mean to lose track of time; it just happened all on its own. I guess you could say that me being busy lately is definitely an understatement. I had a busy summer semester and then it got around to being Grayson’s birthday. Taking care of Grayson is honestly a full-time job when he is here. Since I’ve last blogged, he has been here half of the time which I love, but it requires a lot of organization and juggling everything on my part. So, as of today, I am making a promise to my self to be more involved in my site. I also plan on opening up two other domains as well. One will be for stepmommy stuff and the other will be for reviews and such. I really am getting more into the making money online full-time. The little money I bring in from blogging really helps me provide little things for the family. For instance, my online blogging money is Grayson’s diapers and baby food fund. The money the hubby brings in is for bills and us to go out at least twice a month which is much-needed. So anyways, I am sorry this post is all over the place but I am trying to cook dinner, entertain Grayson, and blog at the same time! So until next time, later loves!
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