I have been having a lot of anxiety lately. For some reason, I feel like if I walk into a room, everyone is staring at me. My palms get sweaty and it feels like there is an elephant standing on my chest. I have no idea why this happens or what causes it; I just wish it would stop. For some reason, my math class causes even more anxiety than normal. Maybe it is because that class is a full class? My other classes have under 15 people in each so I do not mind going to them. I hate going on campus and I knew by filling my schedule with three in-class classes I was taking a big risk. I love to his behind my internet classes because I do not have to have facetime with fellow students. Ever since the whole rape thing back when I was fifteen, I have had major anxiety around strange people. I hate going in crowds and freak out in them often. My therapist diagnosed me with PTSD when I went to him back when I was twenty. Maybe the PTSD is raising its ugly little head again. I have no clue but I really wish it would go the hell on.
In other news, this weekend will be our first Grayson free weekend in a while. This Saturday is also our one year anniversary of being together. Also, next Friday is my birthday as well. There is a lot of celebrate in the month of September! I also get my money for financial aid this month as well which I could really use like yesterday. I hate the way my college takes forever. Bills are piling up and they need to be paid which causes them to take their sweet precious time more so than usual.
Anyways, I wish I had more time to write but I have to run to Kennesaw to get my mom’s prescriptions and then come back home and do some homework. After homework, it’s WoW time. I’m officially readdicted to the game. So if you play, let me know what server you’re on. So until next time, later loves!
=( I’m sorry to hear about your anxiety issues with crowds/people. =( I hate it too, but I don’t think I’m as bad as you… I think I can get through it thought. *hugs* I hope you’re able to get through it somehow…
Wow, September really has a lot of things in store for you! Hehe! Have fun celebrating! =) I know what you mean about bills!!! =(
I’m sorry to hear about your anxiety issues. Are you still seeing the therapist? Maybe he can help you through it. Sometimes the best advice is to try to get through it. Maybe being in this class and seeing people will help you through it.
cute website! How do you get the cool post headings?
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Hi. I came across your website and wanted to let you know that I can relate to your anxiety issue. I hate being in crowds of people that I don’t know also. My therapist diagnosd me as PTSD and jokingly social phobia. At times I really feel that I am social phobia. Before going out with friends or to parties, I always have to ask if there is alot of people there. And if it is…I don’ go because i know I’ll feel uncomfortable. I can relate to you. I was molested by my cousin and know every feeling that your feeling. I know with time things will get better for me and for you.
September sounds like an awesome month for you! You have your anniversary and a birthday to celebrate. Bills are never ending on my end. So I’m waiting for my financial aid money too lol.
Sorry to hear that you are suffering with so much anxiety and stress. Maybe it will just take a while for you to adjust to being in so many classes? I wish my college offered more online courses so I wouldn’t have to attend class so much. September sounds like quite a busy month for you!
BTW, I LOVE this layout…especially the green and blue!
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I hated when you enrolled in school then they tell you that you need to pay and they give you the bill, meanwhile loans, and financial aid and everything else is supposed to be covering all that.
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