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Posted: 09.01.10 @ 01:31pm   •   Filed: Daily Kate   •   Tags: anxiety

I have been having a lot of anxiety lately. For some reason, I feel like if I walk into a room, everyone is staring at me. My palms get sweaty and it feels like there is an elephant standing on my chest. I have no idea why this happens or what causes it; I just wish it would stop. For some reason, my math class causes even more anxiety than normal. Maybe it is because that class is a full class? My other classes have under 15 people in each so I do not mind going to them. I hate going on campus and I knew by filling my schedule with three in-class classes I was taking a big risk. I love to his behind my internet classes because I do not have to have facetime with fellow students. Ever since the whole rape thing back when I was fifteen, I have had major anxiety around strange people. I hate going in crowds and freak out in them often. My therapist diagnosed me with PTSD when I went to him back when I was twenty. Maybe the PTSD is raising its ugly little head again. I have no clue but I really wish it would go the hell on.

In other news, this weekend will be our first Grayson free weekend in a while. This Saturday is also our one year anniversary of being together. Also, next Friday is my birthday as well. There is a lot of celebrate in the month of September! I also get my money for financial aid this month as well which I could really use like yesterday. I hate the way my college takes forever. Bills are piling up and they need to be paid which causes them to take their sweet precious time more so than usual.

Anyways, I wish I had more time to write but I have to run to Kennesaw to get my mom’s prescriptions and then come back home and do some homework. After homework, it’s WoW time. I’m officially readdicted to the game. So if you play, let me know what server you’re on. So until next time, later loves!