Dec

08

Posted: 12.08.10 @ 11:33pm   •   Filed: Daily Kate   •   Tags: #reverb2010

Since I have been lacking in the blogging department lately, I decided to jump on board the whole #reverb2010 bandwagon. I have seen plenty of fellow bloggers posting on their website and I thought this would give me a great chance to reflect on my year since 2010 has been quite an eventful year for me. So here goes without further ado.

December 1 – One Word
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?

My one word would definitely be changes because that is what 2010 certainly had in store with me. I got engaged, planned my wedding, got married, met my step-son, fell head over heels for my step-son, moved out of my mom’s house, and had my first major failure in school. 2010 has definitely been a trying year and even though it had plenty of ups an downs, I would not change anything that has happened this year. The failure in school I am talking about is how I have failed the same class twice due to personal issues that have caused me to miss a test. This semester I missed a class due to Grayson’s sickness but in my eyes, Grayson is more important. Next year I hope the word that encompasses 2011 is bittersweet since I am hoping that all of my hard work will pay off by me graduating from college, walking across the stage, and then hopefully getting pregnant!

December 2 – Writing
What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it?

Considering my blogging is used for my personal expression as well as to make money on the side, there is a lot that can come in the way of it. I have a life filled with a husband, one year old, and a busy school schedule. Honestly, I do not believe there is anything I can do to eliminate things that get in the way of my writing because I enjoy those things too much. I am sure if I cut back on spending time with the family I could spend more time writing, but seriously, family is way more important! My writing is just a hobby and for side cash and that is how I plan on keeping it.

December 3 – Moment
Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).

The moment that comes to mind would be the first time Grayson ever crawled into my arms and gave me a kiss. I can remember we were both sitting on my bed at my mom’s getting ready for bed. We were watching the Goodnight Show on Sprout and he smelled of his lavender baby powder and his soap. My heart melted and I felt so alive. I know that sounds completely insane but to look down at a child and feel their love for you radiating from their body is truly a gift straight from God. Spending time with Grayson has given me the push to do good in school and plan for our future so we can give him brothers and sisters one day. In this moment, I felt so at home and as if I was meant to be in that moment in time. I feel so loved when I am around Grayson and Jonathan because they are the two things that keep me going.

December 4 – Wonder
How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?

Everyday that I watch Grayson I feel a sense of wonder in my life because I love how his eyes light up at the simplest of things. He finds amazement and interest in the most mundane things which makes me look at the world through his eyes more often.

December 5 – Let Go
What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

The past and it has been a long time coming, I tell ya. I have always focused so much on the past and allowed it into my future and that ended this year. I finally let go of all of the hurt and pain that surrounded the relationship with my father as well. It was time to let bygones be bygones and we have a much better relationship because of that. I also buried the fears and feelings surrounding my rape and have stopped letting it govern how I act today which has allowed me to be free and able to fall fully in love with my husband.

December 6 – Make
What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

The last thing I made was a cake for my husband’s birthday since I believe every birthday merits a cake. There are some things I really want to make for Christmas with Grayson such as little decorations for the tree and such. I think handmade ornaments and cards mean the most. I plan on making some gifts for my parents with him so they have a keepsake from him that is handmade.

December 7 – Community
Where have you discovered community, online or otherwise, in 2010? What community would you like to join, create or more deeply connect with in 2011?

I discovered the online communities of Lavish and Ecstasy this year. Even though I am not very active in them right now, I really enjoyed talking with people my age and getting to know them better. I also became more active in the blogging and twitter community. I have met some great people whom I now follow their blogs which has led me to discover that there are a lot of people who think and feel the same way as I do on certain subjects out there. It is very gratifying to know I am not alone in this big ole’ world. I look forward to joining Veracity in 2011 and hopefully becoming even more active in the whole blogging community as well.

December 8 – Beautifully Different
Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful.

There are a lot of things about me that makes me different from others. I am twenty-five years old and have a lot to be thankful in my life. Considering I am thankful for everything in my life and do not focus on the negatives, that sets me apart from a lot of people in the world today. As far as the things that make me physically different from others would be my weight and my eyes. I have no problem admitting my weight issues but I embrace them and plan on changing them. I do not let that get to me and know that there is no reason for me to not hold my head up high and be proud of who I am. I also have pretty and unique eyes per lots of people. If you were to ask my mom she would tell you I have Ukrainian eyes which makes me so proud to know I got those from my grandpa. Another thing I think that makes me beautiful is my resilience since I have overcame so much in my life but I have not let it hold me back. I am determined to make something out of my life and make a difference and come hell or high water I will!