Jun
09
Ever since someone twittered about Manda’s suicide attempt, it has put a lot of things into perspective for me. First off, I didn’t know Manda that well but I have read her blog and commented on it a few times. I also know her through the message boards but I have never talked to her personally. From everything I gathered based from various boards and her blog, she was a nice girl who had an overwhelming life when it came to her relationship with her ex-loser and taking care of her adorably-cute daughter, Gracie. She has a lot on her plate and I guess she felt like she hit rock bottom and life crashed in around her to the point she felt she had no way out. I was quite surprised to hear that she tried to commit suicide because on her blog posts she might seem troubled at time but I guess you never really think someone you know or know of would do something like that. I keep Manda in my thoughts and prayers daily and am adamantly praying for a safe recovery for her. I do know that she has a lot of people both online and offline that cares about her so hopefully once all is well, she can move on from this and put it behind her. I also believe someone needs to kick her ex-loser’s ass as well. I just can’t imagine any man being worth that. I love my husband to death but I’d rather kick his ass personally than cause harm to me because of him.
As I said, everything in my life has been put into perspective. My husband and I don’t always get along but honestly, our biggest fight has been over his brother downloading porn on my laptop. Yes, we did argue over that and I was so ready to just ignore him for a good week because I was tired of fighting with him. There is a lot more to the story but I don’t want to go into it right now. Basically, he spent time with his dad that day and we both cooled down and realized what big retards we were being. No matter what issues we have, we work them out. Divorce isn’t in our vocabulary. I love my husband because he is more than my husband, he is my best friend. Whenever life gets me down, he is my safety rope pulling me back up. Ever since our fight and talking things out, it is like we are in the new stage of our relationship where we are lovey dovey all the time and the sex has been amazing. Okay, let me back up because a) we are always lovey dovey no matter what and b) the sex is always amazing but it’s just like something has clicked between us.
The only issues in my life that have really stressed me out are school, finances, and my weight. Luckily, I swapped classes around so I have one class throughout June session and one class throughout July session. Also, I get my financial aid money next week and I have decided to retry Thrive. If I can make it to next week I will be fine. My finances are so bad that I literally have no money to my name thanks to some unforeseen situations that I didn’t plan for. If those things would not have happened, I would have plenty of money. I know that I am a strong person and I can make it a week. Besides, I have no bills due right now and I don’t have any expenses aside from gas to worry about this week since my gas tank is full I can deal with it. The only thing I’m worried about is Grayson’s diapers but luckily my sister already bought a pack since she loves buying for Grayson and we have plenty of baby food here at the house and juice. So really, I think I am a natural worrier and I have to have something to worry about at all things or I feel out of control. I let things manifest in my brain until I can’t stop concentrating on it. I really think this is where my funks come from. I’m working on blogging everything out so it’s out there in the open so it’s off my brain!
In sitely news, I am going to finally put up my 101 in 1001 page and add a blogroll. I’ve visited some pretty amazing blogs lately and really want to link them. I am also working on other things I want to add to the site such as recipes since I love to kick and a resource section since I love coming across site resources that I think can be beneficial to others. So watch out for those. I’ve been working on some free themes for wordpress I’d like to offer here as well. I’m full of ideas and just praying I have time to complete them all. Well, I’m off to Nutrition Hell because I have a 50 page study guide for the three chapters I have a test on tomorrow. Yes, we started class on Monday and I have a test already. Got to love summer semesters!
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